During my second job after university, I had some tough times. I had probably bitten off more than I could chew at the time. I had moved 500 miles away from my life in Idaho and made it to Montana. I knew 1 person in the entire town, and I took a job thinking that I could change the world and this little campus in the middle of Montana. I showed up and I did what I thought I was suppose to. I managed without listening to my employees, I was a whirlwind of unwelcomed change, and what I thought was right, wasn’t what was needed. I threw too many pebbles in the water without realizing the consequences and the ripples I would make. All the ripples in the water intersected making it one huge mess. Of course, years later I am able to reflect on what I could have done to make my life better, but at the time I was miserable. I felt like no one liked me, I couldn’t make any difference, and was totally defeated. I had made a couple of friends outside of my immediate office, and one day I was walking with one of them across campus and explaining my issues.
“I don’t know how to get through to them, I have no idea why they don’t even like me, I am just at a loss and have no clue what to do.”
This wasn’t the first time he had heard something like this out of my mouth, we would go out for happy hour each week and I would say the same thing. He wasn’t new to these complaints. I think at this point he was tired of hearing the same things and he stopped me right in the middle of campus and looked at me and said “Kelly, just be yourself. If you are just yourself then everyone will love you as much as I do.”
I was speechless. I honestly didn’t know what to do. Should I say thank you? Should I hug him? Instead I just stood there. Then he suggested that I keep walking and we picked up on a new line of conversation.
Those words changed my life. It seems like a simple moment. It seems like a forgettable moment. It was such simple advice, but words to take to heart. Since then I have been working on being myself. Helping to define who I am and figuring out who I want to be. This blog is going through the same transformation, Tall Girl Travels 2.0 will be 100% me. No more apologizing, no more trying to be someone else. You are going to get just me.